& just look up

WE. TAKE. TOO. MUCH. PHOTOS. FOR. OUR. OWN. GOOD.

I took 1hour to arrange ALL the photos into subfolders + saving those on fb.

I NEED TO BACK THESE UP. later ah. if my computer :( on me....!!

11:41 PM

Here's to the stupidest stupidest unfriend who has epic conversations with me.

who else will ask me why I am not talking back then say I am fierce when I do!

THEN POST OUR ENTIRE CONVO ON HER BLOG. grrifying!

ANNOYING ASSHOLE BABY BAT :)

10:27 AM

I knew you. know the person you are, know your reactions, expressions.

but do I still know you? I wish I was brave enough to try to hit at the wall you built between us. I'm not scared of getting scolded, but why does my gut tell me you wont scold, but you will treat me like a stranger? that will hurt the most.

you were strictest with me. out of all of them, you pushed me the hardest, but you were the one who held me closest.

I still miss you, two years later. is that the way it'll be, only a memory?

the thing I regretted the most, was not telling you how much you meant to me. people say there is no need to say things like that, and for all that I am bold, things like these doesnt come out of my mouth easily. but I also know that it means alot when someone says it out as well.

I miss you the same way I miss debating. like missing my own arm.

debate is not the art of fishmongering. what is the point of having talent if there is no commonsense, commitment, passion and love? whatever conflicts there may be, put it aside when you are on the floor. isnt that a basic thing why should there even be a need to say it out? how do you debate when you dont even listen? how to identify flaws, hit at fallacies? utterly ridiculous.

12:41 PM

Tired, truly.

Sorry rubbosh. me bad today.

9:49 PM

stop throwing tantrums. jealous? we all feel that way sometime. so stop putting yourself in the center of the entire universe.

9:44 PM

I hate how every minute we waste is a minute wasted. are we more important or are your results so much more important than us? no I dont mean to say that results are not important, because yes we know that O levels are coming right up.

but then are we that unimportant to you?

we only have so much time left together. because no matter who says what, once we leave cedar and go on our seperate paths, we will never be this close again.

school is utter rubbish. if she doesnt know, are we supposed to know? we are students, there is only so much we can do. you feel helpless? I do too. the sec3s are clueless, as clueless as she is. and we are not even supposed to be involved in anything do you know. I am so fucking tired of cleaning up people's mess and tears.

at the end of the day? in the eyes of the school I have done nothing for them. nevermind what I have done, nevermind what actually is behind the scenes. it didnt matter then when I was a sec3 and during interviews? but now it burns my guts to think of it.

ohforgetit. no point, aint it.

12:29 PM

The last racial harmony day in cedar. I doubt anywhere else you'll find this sense of..cedar. graduation seems to be so near. so near, too near.

after today I have newfound respect for people who go all around in saris. and high heels. Yes I know my heels werent that high but believe me for someone who likes to go around barefooted it IS already very high. I felt so free changing into my bigggg looooseeeeee house tee and sportshoes. the things we take for granted, seriously.

teachers pissy mood today. history timeassignment? chem remedial after chem spar? kidding right. yes I know we are sec4s and yes studies are ZEE the most important things but cut us some slack please. we're still kids y'know.

I wanted to upload photos here but ohforget it! takes forever and I have little or no patience.

so easily tired recently.

9:37 PM

WHINE WHINE WHINE. I WANT A WHITE COLORED CAREBEAR WITH SILVER NOSE!!

10:52 PM

Stop with the overprotective rubbish already. Have more faith in the both of yourselves. no trust, no faith, then wth is the relationship built on? feelings and nothing else?

annoying know.

Alex, ONE DAY I AM GOING TO MARCH UP TO HER AND SCOLD HER I TELL YOU. HEHE :D JUST YOU WAIT! so annoying know! ASK HER HOLD THE FLAG PROPERLY WHAT SAGGY SAGGY ALL! Hehehe (sorry bullying you is just too addictive to give it up! :) )

10:42 PM

If I leave your sides, will you all miss me?

I'll have to face it, no matter what.

9:12 PM

You laugh at me because I'm different. but I laugh at you because you are all the same.

HAHA MIRNA I KNOW RIGHT. it's an ingrained thing somehow. I need to be different I cant just be a face in the crowd!

Thank god for friends you can go to break news that others will make alot of noise over but they just look over calmly and discuss your options with you. and not because they dont care. but it's because they know what you need.

Stupid girl if you faint in the sun or something I swear I will go and kick your butt and then throw you over the flagpole after drowning you in water and feeding you ALOT of chocolate. Tsk.

Table is awesomely noisy. Love it. HAHA I dont thrive in quiet environments on an everyday basis. yes I need the silence once in awhile but yeah that about sums it all. HAHA I cant believe they gave me a card just for being sick for a day :) HEH just because mirna saw a cute card she couldnt resist buying :)

OKAY SHOWER AND STUDY!

8:39 PM

Times like this I really really hate being in the house.

9:40 PM

THIS IS EPIC. Alex's reaction after I told her what we did in the canteen today.

Alex says (12:00 AM):

HAHAHAH AIYOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

GERALDINE ARHHHHHHHHH

YOU'RE LIKE DESTROYING THE SEC 4'S IMAGE

hahahah

EH NOT ONLY ME OKAY. BADI. ARCHU. ZH. MIRNA. CHARMAINE. TABLE. 4N. 4S! HAHAHA TALKING TO ALL OF YOU OKAY.

omgosh hahaha :)

then again. who cares!

heck. I intend to enjoy EVERY second left in cedar. and if that includes facethrowing. SO BE IT :D

12:01 AM

today was an emo bubble turned happy bubble day.

I love my friends. From community singing to balloons and cheesy lines and laughter and bitching in the garnet room and pp macs lunch at 5.45.

Risking our lives and throwing our faces left right center for balloons. HAHAHA. typically epic!

Cedar isnt awesome. It's the people inside, that make it more than awesome.

11:51 PM

Whatcha gonna do when the show is over?

Whatcha gonna sing when the song ends, yeah?

How you gonna cope when there is no closure?

Where you gonna reach when the goal gets higher?

How you gonna make it through when you think you lost your chance?

Play on when you're losing the game

Play on 'cause you're gonna make mistakes

It's always worth the sacrifice

Even when you think you're wrong

So play on, play on

Even when the floodgates swing wide open

Never let current take you down, no

Even when you're not sure where you're going

Swimming through a mess and you can't get out

Just going through the motions and trying not to drown

Play on when you're losing the game

Play on 'cause you're gonna make mistakes

It's always worth the sacrifice

Even when you think you're wrong

So play on, play on

Even through a storm on the darkest night

Don't you ever give up the fight

Even when you feel you're all alone

Play on, play on

I'll play on.

4:20 AM

4 hours and 1 min of sleep is not enough. not especially with all the weird ailments I have been having lately. I always wonder how we actually survive during all the camps with sleeping 4 hours in 2 two days and the amount of physical and mental work that has to be put in!

rationale being since I can and did survive those days? I probably can stand straight and walk in a straight line tomorrow.

Rubbosh You Owe Me Icecream :)

"so you waking at 3? I'm waking up at 3.30. deal: if you do wake up at 3, you call me up at 3.30. if I wake up at 3.30 and no sound from you I'll call you and make alot of noise."

Awesome life of secondary school students.

Ok, I need tea but no I'll wake my mom up since she is damn sensitive to sounds.

Work!

3:47 AM

I walked out of school alone today listening to whenever you remember.

and the tears just came. every harsh word, every look, every tone you ever used on me. every emotion during OAC period, pre OAC period. everything everything everything just came back.

and I just cried and cried and cried.

I'm sick of crying over the same thing but I cant stop.

I'm sorry friends.

10:35 PM

school is awesomely insane. besides all the work blah crap blah shit blah. :)

during recess table had this major war thing after we hid zh's blue ugly car ontop of the sandwich machine! tug of ties war. I swear zh is a violent child I am going to give her a grizzly bear for her birthday and hope it eats her up! embarrassing know and NONE OF TABLE HELPED ME. call themselves my friends. :( HAHAHA, my friends are awesome. NO I DIDNT SAY THIS NO ONE ACKNOWLEDGE THIS AH.

4S had this major shouting fest after school I swear non 4S-ers were scared! HAHAHA, omg typically epic.

I got my wish of getting wet in the rain when me mirna and min went out to cp to get decent non school food :) zh's sms " EH IT IS RAINING DONT GET WET" when we were drenched was hilarious. and min is hilarious I dont know how she actually survived OBS. we were so wet that if you dont look closely you wont see we are wet because the uniform is one color.

leader's powder fight, see mp, omg chiong and pretend to be studying. HAHA, "anytime you see this group of sec4s doing really stupid stuff, you know they are leaders"

oh and everyone thought today was a friday for a really weird reason. but it really felt friday like!

I think school is awesome :)

10:44 PM

Times like these it hurts the most.

I am getting wayyyy irritated at you.

8:12 PM

random thought.

why must people go to war over differences in ideological believes? cant you just I dont know, you believe what you want to believe, I believe what I want to?

what is there to fight over?

mhm. back to SS.

8:36 PM

the next idiot who asks me to act more like a girl,

the next asshole who asks me to study harder,

or the next epitome of stupidity who asks me if I am taking my Olevels and smile like A BLONDE.

Is. Gonna. So. Get. It. From. Me.

ESPECIALLY THE FIRST ONE. SERIOUSLY. I DONT WANT TO ACT LIKE A GIRL TALK LIKE A GIRL GIGGLE LIKE ONE.

AND THAT IS NON OF YOUR BUSINESS. GO MYOB!!!!

8:03 PM

love the night.

10:46 PM

My brother just invited me to watch world cup with him after I argued with my parents and fought him permission to watch tomorrow night.

my answer? "CRAZY I NEED TO SLEEP!"

heh. nah mirna not impossible I'm just being me :)

and ohgod, some people really need to watch themselves on the world wide web. it's okay to be wild and mad. but it's not okay anymore when you affect someone else other than yourself. human rights argument typical.

10:28 PM

People catch my eyes. Pretty, capable, cocky, arrogance, meekness.

but you caught my eye at camp, because you were so much like her. the resemblance was uncanny, the way you'd react to things. the very reason you would become a good leader was because I knew her, and I knew that she was one of the best that I'd ever ever ever had, ever ever ever will have.

archu says lines dont blur. but I think mine has already blurred. and I dont like things I cannot control. which is about every other emotion besides highnesss.

so we'll be high and jump around and sing our hearts out, because it's the last chances that we get to do so. because by doing so we wouldnt need to confront the inner us.

Ikea-ed with the leaders. haha, leaders are an awesome awesome bunch. we got the $0.90 toy!! :)) and HAHA, a chopping board for the passing down present :) sometimes I wished I wished I wished I was still in the board.

Eclipse was a pretty awesome movie haha, watching it with archu was amusing :) and we can never play it safe and all, need to walk through the beach then the park to get home no. :) heck, since we're out that late alone, might as well make the best of it all. :))

11:23 AM

you know how I deal with stress, and every other blah emotion when with friends?

we jump around, scream, eat icecream, sing aloud in the canteen, make noise, make more noise.

awesome no?

Principal's address was, ... HAHA I AM A FAILURE WOOHOO. ohwellz. get used to it we're O N S! yet you see during all the cheering lah, mass singing lah, you know what? WE ARE THE ONES WHO DO IT. rolls eyes! :)

8:26 PM

I am in a very weird mood. very very weird.

9:14 PM

Things that I dont comprehend I cannot justify. Things I cannot justify baffles me and leaves me thinking for a very long time. Maybe I'm spoilt by my ability to understand most things around me. and therefore. yes, simply, therefore.

why complicate things and fight with someone you love? doesnt loving someone include not being able to stay angry for long? Maybe for mirna it's because she needs to talk to the person, but for me it's so much more simple, anger dissolves at a smile from.

is it because we are not standing where you are and therefore judging you based on what WE think is right? I dont like that, I dont like to judge people standing from my own viewpoint I think it's a selfish and stupid bubble act. Yes for someone who perpetually lives in my own bubble, I dont DO that.

ahohwell, I'll just mull over it abit more I guess.

I'm out of ART, goal achieved for Prelim1.

Thanks bob for the sweet. HAHA are you scared of me all over again I thought we went PAST that already lousy unfriend. or is it just coz it's in school -raises eyebrow-

7:34 PM

Geraldine, I'll make for your birthday since you love stars so much. - Mirna

Haha alright hold you up to it!

10:24 PM

Just as well my birthday is over. I wanttt!

6:29 PM

I get very, very, amused. a sardonic kind of amusement you see. not genuinely amused.

you see dear people around me. If, you act like a no brain stupid attention seeking whore of a bimbo, well naturally you will be classified as one right?

and if you act like a shoot off mouth at everything bitch, then again you will be classified as one!

so if people classify you as one, already. I doubt very very very much, that by posting a "disclaimer" like post stating how you are really educated and all and not a bimbo, gonna help.

because unlike you dear, people actually do have brains, eyes, and ears. and judgement formed will not go poof just because of a blog post.

ohgod stupid juniors.

7:31 PM

haha, damn it.

my throat infection is no longer a virus infection, it moved towards being a bacteria infection.

and the stupid bacteria cant just attack the throat you know. it HAS to attack the stomach too. grr. loves me too much I swear.

Rubbosh. You say you spread via sms one right. see lah! your fault!! CHEERLEADER. HAHAHAHAHA. Bye you you went off for your madrasah(sp?) camp.

oh Archu, you know my antibiotics are a very pretty pink color. HAHA.

tired.

7:20 PM

Stars.

I just love copying pictures from alex's blog :) hehe she gave me this enormous bag of marshmellows. if I am too sleepy tomorrow I am just going to sleep on top of it! looks like a huge pillow please :)

All the bad guys make me so conscious of my pronounciation of words! excuse me debate captain only good at shooting holes in arguments and admin stuff okay. the floor got no time to be particular about all these things. too busy shooting already :)) sigh!

Mtnc moments with Badi. HAHA funny much. literally ROFL. :)) we are so mean to JR but whatever!! :) miss the OAL board, storechecks, camps.

whine whine whine I want to go for camps. should stop whining so much. I am so whiny recently!!

8:47 PM