I get so sick of trying to be okay with all of you. it seems to be all awfully fake. I mean, hey, I know that it doesnt matter now right? because ultimately we are going to step down. and bringing all the backstabbing and words to the open, it'll just drive a rift deeper in.
but I cant do this, all the time. I just cant, pretend like nothing is happening.
I could say that it doesnt matter. but it does.
I've always wanted the feeling of together. that was what the board gave me. when I didnt have the board anymore, el was all I had left.
I love debate. but I dont think I'll ever go back to debate in JC. too much pain and memories, as much as I love the floor.
9:11 PM