it's really, grr, like how no matter how well you know your stuff, you are not going to do well for prelims.

cedar's prelims, gr. to think I actually could do the past year prelims paper and was so pleased with myeslf.

half way into the emaths paper I actually had an urge to stand up crush the paper and leave the hall. and I developed a migraine and stiff neck after I put down my paper 1 and started the paper2. great.

and chem. grr. I was trying to expel things I didnt need from my brain to actually answer the question. haber process conditions are definitely not 200degress and nickel catalyst. grr. and writing equations. I am going to master it before prelim2. Must. how can I lose all my marks just because I cant write the first equation?

whatever.

therapy after that was good though. laughter cured my migraine, which was really pounding. we sat where the foyer met the courtyard and ate icecream, laughed in the library, flipped yearbooks, flipped polyguide, exclaim to the entire library that we are going to poly/ite, flip career guidance, get bullied by juniors (:

in a word? Awesome :)

how to leave cedar like that you tell me.

I realized. that I missed out on alot of fun moments with my juniors just because when I was still in the cca I played the bad strict senior. haha, kinda sad, aint it.