you know,

I once read somewhere, that in order to force a baby bird to spread her wings and fly, the mother bird will push the baby bird out of the nest.

I feel like a mother bird pushing my juniors out of their comfort zone and not caring whether they die or not, with stepping down.

I'm stepping down soon. and knowing myself, I cannot walk back into the cca room no matter how much I want to. simply because of my character. if I walk in I wont be able to just step aside.

more to the point that I understand that the new exco, debate captain needs to establish their authority within the cca, and that is not going to be helped if we seniors constantly walk in and challenge their decisions.

even though 7may, is farewell. I'll still be around a fair bit coz of Y14. and hmm. I dont know what to think of that, truth be told.

I watch other ccas, where the sec4s step down. and I see the juniors, not very sure of what to do, how to handle things. making decisions which in our eyes, seem, oddly silly, and just shows inexperience. and I worry for my very sheltered juniors.

For even though we've thrown stuff at them for them to learn and pick up, I sometimes wonder how much they actually..learnt? I dont know. & talking to miss ong, really doesnt help at all. :( I wish I could stay too, but I have my Os to worry about:(

my seniors must have either trusted us alot, or couldnt be much bothered about the welfare of the cca to throw it at us and leave.

but I dont think I could accomplish that.

grr argh rawr. sigh.