feels like freefall confusion.
what do I do? - drop one pure, or combine or continue with both pure?
I dont know.
I've always hated physics. I allowed someone else to take the decision making from my hands and make the decision for me. and I've regretted taking physics. do I let the people around me influence me and drag me down and combine? do I? can I do it, can I pull my grades up? can I? should I?
it's easy enough to see,
I've always envied people who have the love of those below them.
but geraldine, have you forgotten.
you arent the kind people look at and love.
do you command respect? maybe, maybe not.
does it matter?
are you a good senior, a good junior?
I do what I think is best. as always.
but is it the best?
the inevitable is the one that makes you bury your head. you've defeated yourself before it begins.
have I?
the doubts trickle in my head.
10:02 PM